GabbyGal

Well I guess it’s safe to say the past two weeks have been crap. I wanted to work out 4 days at the least a week and I think out of the past 14 days I’ve only worked out 5 times. I feel like poo, but not so bad that I’m to the point of saying I quit. When I first made my profile I guestimated that I weighed about 220. Come to fin out after I completed one of my monthly goals of buying a scale I weigh 237. So it hit me kinda hard. I’m actually thinking about not counting these two past weeks as part of my weeks completed doing the P90x. Just call them keeping me warmed up weeks I guess. I actually took the time to look at the parts of my body I want to hit and lose weight the most on. I always see my stomach so it wasnt anything new, but then I looked at my arms. My arms arent bad just only in the place under and back. I knew that I had a few lil stretch marks from before when I gained weight and lost it but now there seems to be tons of those tiny skin color ones that look worse when you kinda pull your skin. They arent the normal pink or slightly purple ones. Its really aggravating because thats what Ive wanted to avoid. They dont hang bad like some peoples do but I know when skin gets stretched its so hard for it to regain elasticity. I just really dont want to lose the weight in my arms but still have that stupid skin flabby. My skin is really thick in most places on my body, like my stomach and I dont doubt that it would go back easy. But other places are thinner like under my arms. I guess it reminds me of thin kinda small rubber bands and when you like push the rubber and it turns a little whit from the original brown color from stretching it. It can never go back because it lost the elasticity in that one area.

I dont know, it’s a stupid example. I have muscle everywhere I do. And its from being a athlete and that muscle weighs more and thats why I dont stress to much over the number I see on the scale. Now though I know that I’ve been inactive for about a year and that my weight gain isnt muscle. The last time I had my muscle mass checked I had a little over 100 pds of muscle, and that was my sophomore or junior yr and I graduated in 2008. So I have had between then and now 2 more years of high school softball and then kinda working out in college a bit but always on my feet. So I know I’ve gained a little more muscle or stayed about the same. And I know other things go into weighing such as bones and organs and gravity and things inside your body besides fat and muscle. But taking away 100 pds from my weight still leaves 137. I would like to lose about 40 pds. If not then just 30. I know because I’m short and stocky that I would look funny trying to be a size 4 or 5. lol. I could only imagine seeing my big boned ribs sticking out with a tiny waist and big broad shoulders. haha. I would be extremely happy with a pants size of 12-14. I am currently at a pants size of 18.

Well I didn’t do P90x 4 days out of last week but I did do 6 of the exercises. I already did my first one for this week yesterday. My quads are killing me, lol I can barely make it down the steps from my front door. But it’s good because I know it’s working. I was soo sore after the chest and back workout that I took a two day rest. My chest muscles, especially my right was VERY tight. Like I did that going on 3 days ago now and it’s going away but if I stretch my arms to much then I feel it. I drunk my water like I should and that help SO much with my sore muscles. I haven’t really walked the dogs that much or gotten the mail but im gonna. I do have midterms this week ( had my algebra one today, sucked) so pray for me to stay dedicated to this workout and for me taking my midterms ( doing good on them). The hubby gets paid today so I’m more than likely getting my hair cut tomorrow. But for sure this week of not tomorrow. Also gonna get a scale and hopefully find some good, not so expensive weights. Was hard doing that workout yesterday after a two day resting so I’m just gonna just gonna rest a day at the most between workouts unless I cant hardly move haha.

I wasn’t gonna blog today, but I’ve felt so good all day. I got up and that “Don’t wanna do it today, I’ll do it tomorrow” feeling was still there but this time it wasn’t so hard to fight past it. I did my day 2 of the P90x. Today I did Shoulders & Arms. I could feel it and I’m excited. I was just glimpsing through the things you need for some of the videos and even though I can’t do them right now I’m look for a non-mountable pull-up bar. They show a easier way to do it on the video with a chair for like beginners sorta. The big reason I decided to write this is because I’ve not only felt excited about doing this despite the lil negative voice in my head but I’m going to do another part of the P90x today. I’ve cleaned the bathroom, got all my dishes clean (except what the hubs just dirtied up) and got about to more loads of my clothes done. I’ve been setting daily goals for myself as well. I got so much energy today that at this moment even after walking the dogs, cleaning, doing the P90x from earlier, and scheduling my Dr. appointment i promised to do that I’m twitching my toes and want to stop typing and do that another part of the P90x. I’m pumped and ready to go. I’m going to do this. I’ve ate good as well today with my crackers, grapes and a sandwich with what bread. I’ve already drunk 60 ounces of my water today all I need is 4 more ounces but I think I’m going to drink about 40 more ounces before the days over with.

The hubs bday is Friday and since I have a crazy busy day tomorrow I’m making his lemon cake today. But I think it’ll be okay to splurge a bit since I’m gonna do this extra P90 and walking. Hope everyone is having a crazy pumped, exciting day like I have.

I know that many ppl might not pay attention to tagline’s it’s just a few green letters in the top left part of a blog someone’s wrote. Well my tagline is really something that motivates me to live no matter what.

IT’S NOT ABOUT GETTING THROUGH THE STORM, IT’S ABOUT STANDING IN THE RAIN.

I don’t know how many of you have heard it or haven’t but either way it’s beautiful and something to think about. I also don’t know if any of you have heard of a band called Superchick. Even if you have I want anyone who reads this to go to youtube or a music site and look up the song “Stand In the Rain” by Superchick. Listen to it and leave me a comment tell me what you think about the song and the quote.

Here’s a link to the YouTube song of “Stand In the Rain” by Superchick. It isn’t the actual video but I want you to listen to the words/ the music.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlXlUgHUc60

Well I slept in today waking up about 11:20 central time. I didn’t eat as soon as I got up but don’t worry I ate about a hour later. I ate about 15 crackers topped with ketchup, mustard, a pickle each and pieces of bologna and pepper. So yummy. Then I watched about a couple hours of TV. Then I knew I had to move, had to get motivated so I made myself get up and I washed some clothes, fed the dogs and folded some clothes while others were touching up in the dryer. Then I turned on my lappy and put on the P90X (cardio) it was so great. Since the warmups are incredible long I stretched and did my own warm up for about 5 min. Then I did the yoga part of the warm up on the P90X for about 5 min. It was more intense from then on. Was crazy sweating going on and burning. I just kept moving. I especially loved the punch combos and kick combos. I didn’t know I could still kick like that! The rest of the P90X (cardio) lasted about 50 min so I worked out already for a hour! WOHOO GO MEH!! I didn’t get to walk to the mailbox cause the hubs came home earlier right when I was folding more clothes and dryer and washing more clothes. Sooo I was supposed to go to class today (College Algebra) Yuck. But I didn’t go. I know I know. But I’m not just sitting around. I’m on a mission to clean my dogs today, been putting it off for weeks. I’m going to clean ALL my dishes and not just clean them but put them up. Not leave them sitting in the dishwasher. And I’m going to wash/dry/and put away all the clothes. I’ve also been putting off cleaning the dogs bed pillow and washing the bed covers and guess what…the covers are in the laundry room I also have had my tri care medical and dental cards for awhile now, and I’ve been putting off calling to make appointments. Welp I did that today. I have a dentist app. this thurs. ( much needed since a filling came out with half of the inside off my tooth about 3 weeks ago) And now all I have to do is call and make a app. for the yearly mhm (you ladies know what I mean) haha. Sorry for the forwardness for those with sensitive minds. I ate again but it was only just a pudding which was nummy. I have also drunk 36 ounces of water today and about to drink 16 more…gotta hit the 64 ounce make.

Buy a scale.

Buy some free weights.

Work out at least 4 days out of 7 for 1 hr.

Drink 64 ounces of water a day.

Walk the dogs every other day.

Walk to the mail box instead of have the hubby pick it up on his way home from work.

Get my hair cut.

Lose at the least 5 pounds.

Before I moved I had started working at McDonald’s. Contrary to popular belief it actually is a tough job. The floors in the back where the crew works are made of concrete and tiled over. If you sat a car battery on the floor and left it. It would drain it in a few hours. Imagine standing on it for 7-9 hours non stop except 30 min for a lunch. So I was always moving and always on my feet. Other than that I was sorta busy, I had a social life and wasn’t always sitting home doing nothing. I had enough energy to start the curves program. I bought healthier food and snacks, and worked out like 3 times a week. I actually started losing weight and dropped like 2 points in my bmi in just a month. I was so excited. Things got crazy with the wedding and I wrecked my car so Curves was set on the back burner and I was home more and stressed out.

Well I got married and 3 months later in March I moved from my home, fam, and friends in Kentucky 11 hrs away to Belle Chasse, Louisiana on base. Like I said before the hubs is usually working all day from the crack butt of dawn to 4 in the evening. So when he comes home he’s tired and wants to play his video games and just relax. He doesn’t want to move really. I wouldn’t blame him. So While he’s at work on my butt doing really nothing. I get on the comp, watch netflix, and try to keep my sanity by moving around and doing dishes and washing clothes. I don’t want to go work out cuz the gym on base has got all kinds of dudes taking up all the space and staring at you. So I’m at home either eating a lot or hardly eating but either way I’m not doing activity. I can’t stand to sit but I’m just so depressed I could say that I won’t get up and go out. I do have classes from 5-8 on tues. and thurs. nights. I walk out the door and I smile and then I think…when was the last time I was outside. It makes me cry when I think that a person like me that all I did was sit outside and ride 4 wheelers or just see the outside world daily can’t remember the last time I walked outside.

I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t even want to go to the store 5 miles away to get groceries when we need to go but I do anyways. Once I’m finally out of the house I get so happy I don’t feel dark and depressed and lonely. I feel happy, I look at the sky multiple times just to see God’s beauty. I smile at people and see people. I used to go to the dog park with my dogs but the last time I went was like a month and a half ago. I was stoked to start classes again last semester but this semester I’m just like no. But the hubs makes me go and it feels good once I’m in that class. I’ve actually gotten to the point where I don’t want to clean house, I don’t want to feed the dogs, I don’t want to even go to the living room to sit. I just want to stay in bed and get up to use the bathroom.

I’m not this person. Thinking about starting this website and starting the P90X makes me happy. Makes me think of refurbishing myself. I want to get a new haircut. I want to make sure I stay eating right. I want to go outside more even if its just to walk the dogs. I just don’t want to be happy for a couple weeks and get tired of it all. I don’t want to hit my wall and give up. I don’t want to get a breast reduction when I know I can work out and get just a few inches off it and be happy that I’m just a little smaller that way. I like my natural beauty I just want to feel good in it.

Well it’s 8:43 p.m. and I’m starting the P90X tomorrow. My husband is in the Marine Corps so he’s busy most of the day that I’m alone. I don’t like going to the gym on base because so many men are there and I don’t like going alone. I tried it once before just doing the abs part and my hips hurt so bad the next two days it hurt to sit from the pressure of sitting on them. So I’m kinda anxious. I know and believe that it’s how you feel and what someone looks like when it comes to weight. Because I don’t look like I weigh and many people don’t. I’m big boned from my dads side with broad shoulders and a short, stocky/sporty build. So if I lost to much weight I’d look funny. I just want to lose my belly pooch, my love handles, and tighten up my arms and back. I have a bad back not only cause my chest but also from my weight so I’m ready to improve my posture. I just want to look healthy and frankly possible lose a few inches in my chest. I know that most women can relate. haha. It’s been hard since I moved to Louisiana from my home in Kentucky. All my family and friends are now 11 hrs away. So my support system is lacking (my husband is great though). I hope I can find my needed support on here thats lacking now.